Valerie Owens You know, I can take a lot of crazy shit from a lot of crazy people. But you? You are not crazy.
Then what's wrong with me, huh? What the **** is going on inside my head? Tell me, Dr. Val, what's your diag-nonsense?
Valerie Owens [hovering over Susanna]
You are a lazy, self-indulgent little girl who is driving herself crazy.
Is that your... professional opinion, huh? Is that what you've learned in your advanced studies at night school for Negro Welfare Mothers? I mean, Melvin doesn't have a clue, Wick is a psycho, and you... you pretend to be a doctor. You sign the charts and dole out meds. But "you ain't no doctor, Miss Valerie. You ain't nothing but a black nursemaid."
Valerie Owens And you're just throwing that away.
Valerie Owens [about Daisy]
What would you have said to her?
I don't know. That I was sorry. That I will never know what it was like to be her. But I know what it's like to want to die. How it hurts to smile. How you try to fit in but you can't. You hurt yourself on the outside to try to kill the thing on the inside.
Valerie Owens Susanna, it's all and well and good to tell me all this; but you gotta tell some of this to your doctors.
How the hell am I suppose to recover when I don't even understand my disease?
Valerie Owens But you do understand it. You spoke very clearly about it a second ago. But I think what you gotta do is put it down. Put it away. Put it in your notebook, but get it out of yourself. Away so you can't curl up with it anymore.
Lisa thinks it's a gift. That it let's you see the truth.
Valerie Owens Lisa's been here for eight years.
[crying]
I'm so sorry. I was a bitch, I was a bitch.
Valerie Owens Do not drop anchor here, you understand?
[narrating]
When you don't want to feel, death seem like a dream. But seeing death, really seeing it, makes dreaming about it **** ridiculous. Maybe, there's a moment growing up when something peels back... Maybe, maybe, we look for secrets because we can't believe our minds... [overlapping words] All I know is that there's I began to feel things again. Whatever I was, I knew that there was only one way back to the world, and that was to use the place to talk. So I saw the great and wonderful Dr. Wick three times a week, and let her hear every thought in my head.