Is there a library or bookstore around here where I can get books on hunting and preserving?
Anything at all to do with hunting or preserving the meat, smoking it, whatever the hell it is, talk to Kevin over there. That's your man. [Kevin gets slapped by a woman] Outdoorsman? What's your fascination with all that stuff?
Alaska, Alaska? Or city Alaska? Because they do have markets in Alaska. The city of Alaska. Not in Alaska, in the city of Alaska, they have markets.
No, man. Alaska, Alaska! I'm gonna be all the way out there, all the way **** out there. Just on my own. You know, no **** watch, no map, no ax, no nothing. No nothing. Just be out there. Just be out there in it. You know, big mountains, rivers, sky, game. Just be out there in it, you know? In the wild.
What are you doing when we're there? Now, you're in the wild, what are we doing?
You're just- you're just living, man. You're just there, in that moment, in that special place and time.
Maybe when I get back, I can write a book about my travels.
You know, about getting out of this sick society. Society!
Society, you know! Society! 'Cause you know what I don't understand? I don't understand why people, why every **** person is so bad to each other so **** often. It doesn't make sense to me. Judgment. Control. All that, the whole spectrum. Well, it just...
What people we talking about?
You know... parents, hypocrites, politicians, pricks.
[points to Chris' head]
This is a mistake. It's a mistake to get too deep into all that kind of stuff. Alex, you're a hell of a young guy, a hell of a young guy. But I promise you this. You're a young guy. Can't be juggling blood and fire all the time!
[showing Ron the stamps on his belt]
I went to South Dakota. I worked at a grain elevator for this guy named Wayne. He was a really good guy. So, I took the Colorado River all the way down through the Grand Canyon and did rapids, which is by far one of the scariest things I've ever done. And I took the Colorado down into Mexico, Golfo, where I got stuck. Salvation Mountain. The Slabs.
What's the "N" stand for?
Billie Your father and I, we want to make a present to you.
Walt We want to get you out of that junker.
Billie [points at Chris' car]
That.
Walt We want to buy you a new car.
Billie That's right.
A new car? Why would I want a new car? Datsun runs great. Do you think I want some fancy boat? Are you worried what the neighbors might think?
Billie Well, we weren't gonna get you a brand new Cadillac, Chris. We just want to get you a nice new car that's safe to drive. And you never know when that thing out there just might blow up.
Blow up! Blow up? Are you guys crazy? It's a great car. I don't need a new car. I don't want a new car. I don't want anything.
Billie Okay.
These things, things, things, things.
Billie Okay.
Walt [to Billie]
Everything has to be difficult.
Walt [sarcastically]
Thank you.
Billie Maybe that's not what he means. Maybe he just wants his old car. It's not such a big deal.
Thank you. I just don't want anything.
Bull [beats Alex for hiding on a train]
Show me your face! I never, ever, ever forget a face. If I see yours again, I won't arrest you, I'll kill you. This is the goddamned railroad and we will do whatever we have to do to keep you freeloaders from violating our liability.
Bull You got any ID?
Bull Of course, you don't. Last time, my friend!
[reading "I Now Go Back to May 1937" by Sharon Olds]
"I see them standing at the formal gates of their colleges. I see my father strolling out under the ochre sandstone atch, the red tiles glinting like bent plates of blood behind his head. I see my mother with a few light books at her hip, standing at the pillar made of tiny bricks with the wrought-iron gates still open behind her, its sword-tips black in the May air. They are about to graduate. They are about to get married. They are kids. They are dumb. All they know is they are innocent, they would never hurt anybody. I want to go up to them and say, 'Stop, don’t do it. She's the wrong woman, he's the wrong man. You are going to do things you cannot imagine you would ever do. You are going to do bad things to children. You are going to suffer in ways you never heard of. You are going to want to die.' I want to go up to them there in the late May sunlight and say it. But I don't do it. I want to live. I take them up like the male and female paper dolls, and bang them together at the hips like chips of flint, as if to strike sparks from them. I say, 'Do what you are going to do and I will tell about it."
Well, could've been either one of us, couldn't it?
Jan I was just a couple of years older than Tracy when I got pregnant.
Jan Yeah. Yeah, I thought my husband and I were going to just make peace on Earth and babies and love and stay together forever, and that didn't quite work out that way. He left me. So, I... Anyway, whatever, but I ended up raising Reno on my own. That's my boy, his name's Reno. Then I met Rainey. That was sweet. It was really good for a while. It's just... You know, Reno was a teenager already by then, and he was just on his way to becoming his own man. And I haven't even heard from him in two years. I don't even know where he is.
I hope I get to meet him sometime.
Jan Do your folks know where you are?
[Chris remains silent] [walks over]
Hey, guys? Dinner's ready if you guys are hungry.
Yeah, we are. We're hungry.
Jan I'll be all right.
You want to come and eat? Or we'll sit here. Because I will sit here with you all night.
Kevin You're gonna need something. What kind of gun you got?
I'm probably gonna get like a twenty-two, I think. A twenty-two caliber rifle.
Kevin All right, then. When you get your kill, time is of the essence. Now, the first thing you wanna do is make sure that you got that meat nice and shaved up. And you don't have a lot of time to do this. This is about an hour or two. Depending on the weather. Especially if it's hot, you've got less time to do it. What you do is you want to make sure that them flies don't land on your meat. Because once them flies start shitting out larvae and them maggots, you know, those creepy crawlies, it's too late. It's too late.
Leonard Knight A lot of people in the valley just love me a lot. Everybody now, I think, in the whole world is just loving me. And I want to have the wisdom to love them back. And that's about it. So, I really get excited.
You really believe in love then?
Leonard Knight Yeah. Totally. This is a love story that is staggering to everybody in the whole world. That God really loves us a lot. Does that answer that?
Leonard Knight Good.
Jan Yeah, a leather tramp. That's what they call the ones that hoof it, go on foot. Technically we're rubber tramps.
Because we have a vehicle. [tries to put his arm around Jan] You don't have to push me away.
Jan [to Rainey]
Come on, please? Yeah, Alex could have a vehicle as well, but he decided to burn all of his money.
I don't need money. Makes people cautious.
Jan Come on, Alex. You gotta be a little cautious. I mean, that book of yours is cool and everything, but you can't depend entirely on leaves and berries.
I don't know if you want to depend on much more than that.
Jan Where are your mom and dad?
Living their lies somewhere.
Jan You look like a loved kid. Be fair.
Jan You know what I mean.
I'll paraphrase Thoreau here. "Rather than love, than money, than faith, than fame, than fairness, give me truth."
You're an industrious little ****er, aren't you?
It's funny how things happen at particular times. I've loved that woman for a lot of years, bro. But, you know, she's got a story. We've been going through this thing, real quiet. So, when we ran into you yesterday, this thing that we've been going through real quiet, she's talking about it. You know what I mean?
Well... some people feel like they don't deserve love. They walk away quietly into empty spaces, trying to close the gaps to the past.
That's a hell of an insight. Jesus! You're not Jesus, are you?
You gonna walk across the water and get her back for me, pal?
Nah, I'm afraid of water. Always have been. Something I've gotta get over sometime though, huh? So, I will swim in it if you'll carry the firewood back to camp.
Ranger [while on the phone]
Can I help you?
Yeah. If I wanted to paddle down the river, where's the best place to launch out of?
Ranger Hang on a second. [to Chris] To launch out of? What's your experience level?
Ranger Any? Do you have a permit?
A permit? Permit for what?
Ranger You can't paddle down the river without a permit. If you want, you can apply for one here, get some experience, and I'll put you on the wait-list. [back on the phone] No, I got this guy in here. We'll figure it out.
There's a wait-list to paddle down a river?
Ranger That's right.
Well, how long do I have to wait?
Ranger Yeah, hang on a second. Now, the deal is it's gonna be me and you or it's gonna be me, you and her? [to Chris] Next available is May 17, 2003.
Ranger Great. Done. The three of us, then. [to Chris] What's that?
Twelve years? To paddle down a river?
Ranger Let me call you back. [hangs up the phone] You can do that, or you can join a commercial raft trip, go with a licensed guide. They may have some last-minute cancellations, but that's gonna cost you $2,000.
[sarcastically]
Thank you very much.
Alaska!? Son, what the hell are you running from?
[climbing a hill]
You know, I can ask you the same question! Except I already know the answer!
I do, Mr. Franz! You got to get back out in the world! Get out of that lonely house, that little workshop of yours. Get back out on the road! Really! You're going to live a long time, Ron! You should make a radical change in your lifestyle! I mean, the core of man's spirit comes from new experiences. And there you are, stubborn old man, sitting on your butt!
Ha! I'll show you sitting on my butt! [gets up and follows Chris up the hill]
