I know what you want, and I can't bear your concern, your constant hovering, your neediness. You are a constant reminder of my own personal inadequacies and failings. You want something that never was and never will be.
Most scenes together: Reverend Ernst Toller & Reverend Joel Jeffers (2), Reverend Ernst Toller & Michael Mensana (2)
First Reformed quotes
Page 2 of 2Maybe I shouldn't care about whether people like me. Did Jesus worry about being liked?
Now Michael, I can promise you that whatever despair you feel about bringing a child into this world cannot equal the despair of taking a child from it.
The bad times they will begin, and from that point everything moves very quickly. You know, this social structure can't bear the stress of multiple crises. Opportunistic diseases, anarchy, martial law, the tipping point. And this isn't in some like distant future. You will live to see this.
The desire to pray itself is a type of prayer. How often we ask for genuine experience when all we really want is emotion.
The man who says nothing always seems more intelligent. Why couldn't I just keep silent?
These thoughts and recollections are not so different from those I confide to God every morning. When it is possible. When He is listening. This journal is a form of speaking, of communication from one to the other. A communication which can be achieved simply and in repose without prostration or abnegation. It is a form of prayer.
We tend to think that anxiety and worry are simply an indication of how wise we are, yet it is a much better indication of how wicked we are. Fretting arises from our determination to have our own way.
Will God forgive us for what we're doing to his creation?