Most scenes together: Leland P. Fitzgerald & Pearl Madison (3)
I recall when our lives were unusual and electric. When we burned with something close to fire. But now we sway to a different rhythm. Lives lived without meaning or even directed hope. The passage of time measured only by loss. Loss of a job, loss of a minivan...a son.
Mrs. Calderon You have to believe that life is more than the sum of its parts, kiddo.
Becky Pollard I'm serious, okay? I want you to say you're always gonna to be there.
Well, sometimes I'm somewhere else.
Becky Pollard Just tell me that everything's gonna to be okay.
I can't really make sure everything's okay.
Becky Pollard I know, but... Sometimes you say things that aren't all the way true, but you say them anyways because you want to be true. You know, maybe, maybe that's good enough. Just... just tell me everything's gonna be okay. Whisper it in my ear, that's all.
Bengel You ever think the whole thing doesn't make sense? I mean, they take all this stuff away from you; freedom, girls and sunshine - because it's supposed to make it so when you get back on the outs you never wanna screw up again. All that really does is get you to thinking that you're... just so small. You know? Like you're this... this small thing that doesn't matter for anything. And by the time you do get out - you don't even feel like a human person anymore.
Aren't you an actor?
Aren't we all, dear.
How do you see the world, bro?
Full of possibilities. I think that good things abound positive things. What about you?
Hmm... I think there are two ways to see it. One's like what you said, where our lives are ok. And maybe stuff's wrong but you don't see it.
What's the other way?
When you see what's really there.
The sadness?
You know what the funny thing about earthquakes is? After an earthquake you see people pulling other people out of broken down buildings and people hugging and junk because they saw a little girl's shoe in the middle of the road and no little girl around. Then a couple days later they forget all about it...
Well it still shows you that there's goodness in people.
During earthquakes at least...
I'm only human, man.
It's funny how people only say that after they do something bad. I mean, you never hear someone say, "I'm only human" after they rescue a kid from a burning building.
Just because what you did was wrong doesnt mean that giving up on your life is right.
Love is when you can't get somebody out of your mind. When they are your first thought in the morning and your last thought at night. Maybe it's not in your heart but it is in your head.
Why did you do it, Leland?
Because of the sadness.
What sadness? Whose sadness?
Your sadness.
And that's when I figured out that tears couldn't make somebody who was dead, alive again. There's another thing to learn about tears: they can't make somebody who doesn't love you any more love you again. It's the same with prayers. I wonder how much of their lives people waste crying and praying to God. If you ask me, the devil makes more sense than God does. I can at least see why people would want him around. It's good to have somebody to blame for the bad stuff they do. Maybe God's there because people get scared of all the bad stuff they do. They figure that God and the Devil are always playing this game of tug-of-war with them. And they never know which side they're gonna wind up on. I guess that tug-of-war idea explains how sometimes, even when people try to do something good, it still turns out bad.
I know what they want from me. They want a reason. Something to tie up with a little bow and bury in the backyard. Bury it down so deep it's like it never happened. They want me to say how I'm so sorry, and it was my mom's fault. Or maybe it was my dad's fault. Or it happened because of TV or movies or some junk like that. Or maybe I blame some girl.
I think there are two ways you can see the world. You either see the sadness that's behind everything or you choose to keep it all out.
It covers my eyes. It's all I can see. Say there's some kids playing baseball. All I see is the one kid they won't let play because he tells corny jokes and no one thinks they're funny. Or I see a boy and a girl in love and kissing, you know. I just see that they're gonna be one of those sad old couples one day who just cheats on each other and can't even look each other in the eye. And I feel it. I feel all of their sadness. I feel it probably worse than that sad old couple or that corny kid will ever feel it.
