Kristen Cates quotes from Rush (1991)

You don't have to do this, you know.

Kristen Cates

I know.

It isn't going to be the way you think it is. It gets ugly.

Kristen Cates

Yes sir, I know.

No, you don't know. You get ugly with it. [pause] What d'you ever wanna do this for, anyway?

Kristen Cates

Seems like a chance to make a difference.

I'll tell you what's gonna be different. You.

Miss Cates, this is Jim Raynor. He was pretty himself once.

Jim Raynor

Broke in Montana. I kept meaning to get it fixed, then I came down here, where it's warm, and I lost my motivation.

Kristen Cates

Is that where you're from, Montana?

Jim Raynor

The eastern part. The Big Empty. And now, I'm from Caddo Lake, Texas.

Kristen Cates

Were you a narc up there too?

Jim Raynor

Ruins you for everything else.

Jim Raynor

That's probably not a joke.

Jim Raynor

It's a long haul, and you hate yourself most of the way.

Kristen Cates

Is that how you live?

Jim Raynor

No. It's simpler than that for me. But then I got low self-esteem.

Jim Raynor

Gotta do something about your hair.

Kristen Cates

What?

Jim Raynor

Quit washin' it. There are some things we gotta talk over.

Kristen Cates

Okay.

Jim Raynor

We buy drugs. Larry Dodd gives us the money. And he's the only one we ever talk to in the whole department. To everybody else, we're junkies. What that means is if we get into something, we ain't gonna call in no "Officer assist" to get out. Our "Officer assist" is each other. So, what I'm saying is when you come into this it can't be halfway.

Kristen Cates

I didn't think it was.

Jim Raynor

You know what you're doin'?

Kristen Cates

Yeah.

Jim Raynor

Gotta be able to lie better than that.

Kristen Cates

I can do what it takes.

Jim Raynor

You wanna try to light that up?

Jim Raynor

You do that on the street, I guarantee you're ****. You're ****. And I'm **** with you, 'cause we're partners.

Kristen Cates

It's simulation.

Jim Raynor

Simulation's something you say in court. Outside the court we're here to buy dope. You go in thinkin' these people are stupid, it'll get you hurt, and me hurt with you. That's what happens when the shit comes down. One of us is ****, we both are. And that's what this is about. You and me. 'Cause people find out what we do, I mean either side, the DA or the dealers, it's over. Over. All we got is each other.

Kristen Cates

All right.

Jim Raynor

Listen, I know this is a little hairy.

Kristen Cates

I'm not scared.

Jim Raynor

It happens. All this shit about addiction is a matter of how strong you are. I've seen agents brought up for air. They've been doin' it steady five, six months, plenty strung out. Gotta get strong. You kick the bed covers a week or two, you run a little temperature. You get up on your feet, stand and walk. Cops? That's how it's done. A ****in' dealer won't split down with nobody till he knows he's cool. Business. That's the way it is.

Jim Raynor

That's some nice shit, man.

And you know that. Willie Red gets the best. Only the best. Kinda make you feel like floatin' on a cloud of titties. [to Kristen] So what about you, sister? You wanna taste?

Kristen Cates

No.

No?

Jim Raynor

No, she don't fix. The lady, she don't fix.

Oh, man. She be missin' out on the good things in life. [pause] I think she fix. I think she fix, else you don't walk outta here.

Kristen Cates

Walker told us everything was cool with you, man. He said "Just come on by, everything's fine."

Damn straight. Walker cool as the other side of my pillow, honey. But you ain't showed me shit. What the **** you come down here for? You don't wanna get down, tell me that.

There you go, baby. Ain't nothin' to it but to do it. Yes, Lord. Pretty soon you'll be feelin' all unnecessary.

Kristen Cates

Did you smell him?

Jim Raynor

Yeah, they don't take many baths. It's a better high if they're dirty.

Really?

Jim Raynor

Yeah. It doesn't leak through the skin.

So what happens now?

Jim Raynor

We go back to sleep.

No, I mean to him.

Jim Raynor

He's already asleep. He's just like anybody else. We don't touch any of them until we get them all. How bad did that scare you last night?

Some. But I didn't mind. And I liked it.

Jim Raynor

What did you like?

I liked being there with you. And I liked being scared. I liked knowing he was going away for it.

Jim Raynor

Don't like it too much.

D'you like it too much, Jim?

Jim Raynor

Yeah, I like it too much.

Kristen Cates

What'd you say if we told you Gaines isn't dealin' drugs?

I'd say, "When are you gonna make the case?"

Kristen Cates

Will Gaines isn't dealin' drugs. At least not to us. We've tried to get next to the man for five months. He won't come across with anything. Nothin'. He won't even talk about it.

Now, Will Gaines is a dealer in drugs and pornography, and that is a fact. Make the case.

Kristen Cates

Are you tellin' us to plant evidence?

I'm tellin' you that sometimes good work is accomplished in mysterious ways.

Kristen Cates

You know what scares me? The thought of all those people getting up in court, telling what we did.

Jim Raynor

Nobody believes them, except other dealers and other cops. That's what makes the whole thing work. You never admit to anything. Someone's holding evidence in your face... nothing.

Jim Raynor

Feels like a long ride to nowhere, doesn't it?

Kristen Cates

You know, after I finished with the grand jury, they applauded me. It made me feel sick. I feel sick.

Jim Raynor

You pick a side. Because you have to. And it's supposed to be the right one. Difference being, our intentions were good. But...

Kristen Cates

Difference is there isn't any difference.

What's going on?

Kristen Cates

We're doing it this afternoon. Now, what we can do is prearrange your bail, arrest you with everybody else, make it look like you weren't involved.

Nah, I can't do that. That'd make it worse than it already is.

Kristen Cates

Well, you better get outta town, stay with a relative somewhere.

Well, hey I can't do that either. I mean, my relatives, they all live here, in Catterley. There ain't no place to hide.

Kristen Cates

People know where you live, Walker.

Well, I expect they do.

Well, we can set you up in Houston. I can talk to Dodd.

I got friends who're gonna do 40 years - that's what Jim said, right? 40 years for selling somebody dime bags that I asked them to sell. Y'all just want me to run off now and hide. [shakes head] No.

You gonna make me arrest you, Walker?

Look, Kristin. Everything I've done for the past three months was 'cause I was scared of somethin' else. And now there ain't nothing else I'm scared of - it's right here. I'm ****in' ashamed. You understand that?

Yeah. I understand that.

Well, you ain't got nothing to scare me anymore.