What are you? Some sort of angel visiting me from one of my drunk fantasies? How can you be so good?
I don't know what you're saying. I'm just using you. I need you.
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What are you? Some sort of angel visiting me from one of my drunk fantasies? How can you be so good?
I don't know what you're saying. I'm just using you. I need you.
So, Ben with an "N" - what brings you to Las Vegas? Business convention?
No. I came here to drink myself to death. Cashed in all my money, paid my AmEx card, gonna sell the car tomorrow.
So, how long is it gonna take for you to... drink yourself to death?
I think about four weeks.
...
Is drinking a way of killing yourself?
Or, is killing myself a way to drink?
So... why are you killing yourself?
Interesting choice of words. I don't remember. I just know that I want to.
So, for 500 bucks, you can do pretty much whatever you want. You can **** my ass.
Oh, my God.
You can **** on my face. Whatever you want to do. Just keep it out of my hair.
Okay.
I just washed it.
What's the story? Are you too drunk to ****?
I don't care about any of that. There's time left. You can have more money. You can drink all you want. Just stay. That's what I want. I want you to - talk or listen. Just stay.
Don't you think you'd get a little bored, living with a drunk?
Well... that's what I want.
You haven't seen the worst of it. I knock things over... throw up all the time. These past few days I've been very controlled. You're like some sort of antidote that mixes with the liquor and keeps me in balance. But, that won't last forever.
I came here to drink myself to death.
How long will it take you?
I'd say about three to four weeks.
...
Is drinking a way of killing yourself?
Or, is killing myself a way of drinking?
Sera... I'm not gonna see a doctor. Perhaps now would be a good time for me to move back to a motel.
And do what? Rot away in a room? We're not gonna talk about that. **** you, we're not gonna talk about that! [starts to cry] You're staying here! You could do this for me. I've given you gallons of free will around here. You could do this one thing for me! [pause] I have to go to work now.
Don't you like me, Ben?
Sera... what you don't understand is - no, see, no. You can never, never ask me to stop drinking. Do you understand?
I do. I really do.
So why are you a drunk?
Why am I a drunk? Is that really what you wanna ask me?
Yes.
Well, then, this is our first date, or our last. Until now I wasn't sure it was either.
I'll tell you, right now... I'm in love with you. But, be that as it may, I am not here to force my twisted soul into your life.
We both know that I'm a drunk. And I know you are a hooker. I hope you understand that I am a person who is totally at ease with that. Which is not to say that I'm indifferent or I don't care, I do. It simply means that I trust and accept your judgment.
Are you desirable? Are you irresistible? Maybe if you drank bourbon with me, it would help. Maybe if you kissed me and I could taste the sting in your mouth it would help. If you drank bourbon with me naked. If you smelled of bourbon as you **** me, it would help. It would increase my esteem for you. If you poured bourbon onto your naked body and said to me "drink this". If you spread your legs and you had bourbon dripping from your breasts and your pussy and said "drink here" then I could fall in love with you. Because then I would have a purpose. To clean you up and that, that would prove that I'm worth something. I'd lick you clean so that you could go away and **** someone else.
I don't know if I started drinking 'cause my wife left me or my wife left me 'cause I started drinking, but **** it anyway.
I think the thing is, we both realized that we didn't have that much time. And I accepted him for who he was, and I didn't expect him to change, and I think he felt that for me, too. I liked his drama, and he needed me. And I loved him. I really loved him.
I think the tough times are finally behind me. There'll always be bad things, but... my life is good. It is as I want it to be. It's good. It's good being here with you.