Captain Benjamin L. Willard The crew were mostly just kids. Rock 'n' rollers with one foot in their graves. Captain Benjamin L. Willard They'd traded in their horses for choppers, and went tear-assing around 'Nam looking for the shit ... Captain Benjamin L. Willard Part of me was afraid of what I would find and what I would do when I got there. I knew the risks, or imagined I knew. But the thing I felt the most, much stronger than fear, was the desire to confront him.